Heaven and Earth

If shame and hurt and fear
Haunt me
Take my life, my happiness
Turn me into something
Less than white, less than me
Less than passionate
If Ages tell the truth
Men need that, and Men need this
Metal in my veins, metal in my blood
She always says this is How it is
This is how it was.
If we all have holes, do they take
Or do they give
Does our past make us strong
Or Take from our future?

It's already ruined, She says
Her eyes, her voice, a thead
She's Me, only much smaller
Metal in my veins, makes me stronger
Fire against Metal
Bends

One book ends
Another One begins
This one might be better
Let's see
She said.

When the little girl
Goes
This woman emerges
(From a forest)
Of course

Is She triumphant
Or burdened down
With too much
Emotional stow

Does She wait
Or does she Go
Does she know?
Or are the voices in her head
Too loud
Telling her

One way is not the other?
Or it it?
Does she even know?
Are the ghosts howling out?
Or is it inside of her Self?
Does she know what's inside?
Is it fabrication?
What we feel?
Are our feelings delusions?

What he says is always poignant
True
She takes it, she stows
Drops off what she had
It's rotten now, anyhow
Time to leave it, to grow

It's a fabrication of a world
If ruined is already happened
Inside your head
His words a feeling
His face locked in her mind
Locked up in memory and time

She knows what she feels
Is real
A matter of the sky, and heaven and hell
Forever is locked into Her, into her will

A Man who came into her life
Who She knows is the one for her
He tells her, she tells him
They know it, they know

She's not stuck with the past, it haunts her
A place that took, until it took it all
Left not a single drop of love inside of her
Now She's full
Now She still wants more
She's scared
She's elated
She knows what happens
She fails
Between Earth and Heaven
She sits and She waits
In the blue of his eyes
When he knows
He knows
Yet she waits, she sits she sits with her stew
She waits with her stow
Of tears and dreams
That make her feel
Deranged and shaken
Disgusted with herself, and pleased
She sits, and she waits
She sits and she waits and she tells the truth
She emerges from the forest triumphant
The little girl inside of her cries, for all that she knows
She does, when she doesn't really want to do
Patiently
Is how she would like to wait, but she's sick
She's deranged
In her dreams, and with her past haunting her
His haunting him, reaching up to grab
To take the love, they want
They have
They share

In the Blue of his eyes
For the colors of love and the sky
For permanent happiness here on Earth
In the sky, to love and live
In Heaven's eyes
Can't wait, let's begin
She wishes it came out, it left
It leaves


Instead the little girl speaks
Who cries, and begs
Please just love me, just give me a chance
Let's do it let's do it, let's do it now
The little girl can't wait
For her dream to begin, so she cries
So she begs
She stews and sits

She emerges triumphant anyway
For Earth is solid, the sky is timeless
She is grace.
She is beautiful.
She stands tall.
She is proud .

Eye of Time

How do you describe what beauty is to you?
Light hangs from the sky, his eyes
Our eyes, lock and lay
I love you, means YOU
Who you are, what you are
How you are, what you do
The sweet gentle grace, that happens
When beauty in the sky, falls
A Soul is beautiful, as it rises and floats
His face is all I can see, sweet
Whole as a Moon, His soul
A beast from the sky
Heaven is here
I will take you in the Meadow
Howl with you
Stay here, come nearer
Happening Forever
Heaven and Here
A green meadow holds beauty
Never grows old, never fades
Love's first kiss never fades
In our minds it holds love
Even after it's long gone and fades
Love again, look at a  meadow
Of beauty and love, Earth's light
Particles floating in air
The light is soft when you look up
The Pines glory is Tall
Beauty in the trees
Love warm and safe
Time holds all, hold on
Love and Time
Earth's timeless Vastness
She holds it all, I hold it all
Me and Time in his eyes

Days and Nights
Inky blue, watching over me
She is here
Timeless, Still
My eyes, they have seen her
The whitest white you can see
Thru a lens, with my eye
With his arm around my waist
Night in a vast place
I looked and I saw the whitest white
Of the Moon, that is Space
She keeps me safe
He keeps me safe
Warm and safe
Created in love, and it we carry
In us, we are time and place
Solid as Earth, we are here
Marveling at the beauty of Space
Our own mind touches beauty
Remembers her in times
When I walk in the Meadow
Of solace
Nature I carry with me
And she carries me
Through
Love
and time

Fyr

Firs
Winter never comes
But through my dreams I see her
Snow white, bright as ice
Solstice moons full as a face painted white
He showed me Earth from Saturn
A spec, unreal
As if we don't exist at all
Insignificant/Special
Amidst the endless blackness space
Dreams through windows seen
Family Family Family
We need to keep on loving
We need to keep the faith
Keep on dreaming, keep on keeping
Keep believing what is true
Shining light, shining white
Thru the pines
In my dreams walking, running
Flying above
Blue and white Vast
As the ocean
Open/Free/Limitless
The air catches me higher
I am everywhere
Earth changes, I am everywhere
I am everywhere, Blue Earth
In dreams, infinite worlds
That could be, every second
Here on God's green earth
White light, keep my soul white
Bathed \ in light
She ( I ) lay in water
Deep as the ocean, yes
At the bottom I lie
I keep, I float
I dream of times unseen
Of my life, and yours
When it comes I cry
Comes pouring forth
From the deepest Love
Deepest part of soul
I know not what these things mean
Only how they feel as they come pouring forth
Why my thoughts are what they are
When I lived in another time, the memories
Are real
I have- may be from here
From another time
Everywhere
Rules of the Universe are hidden
Ice on Mercury
Pondering
Of me of you
Of another time
Of somebody else
A long time ago
I was somebody, but she got lost
Now in the firs and the sunlight
I am coming home, my path bathed in light
I am everywhere, as are you
Thru the forest, the light shining through
Here I am
Found
Bathing in golden light, I am Queen
Just in time to claim my place
In my Kings arms
His blue eyes
His soul pure
Heart warm
I have arrived to take his side
Bathed in Green and light