Never Enough

Slap
Turn your day away
Sleep
Play
Turn your mind around
Flip
What
Don't you want to know
I do
Every moment
Every second
You waste
On hate
Turn it away
Gloomy
Blue
Never enough for you
What will be enough?
Fill up your cup
Again and again and again and again
Never enough
Choices you made
Choices you make
Break your life
Break your day
Turn to the dawn
See the sun shine
What more do you want?
Than what you have
Not bad enough
Work for it
You know it's hard
Not hard enough
Keep on pushing
Pushing out
Life
You think will bring you joy
But your mind won't LET
It's what you want
What you destroy
Never enough
Keep On Filling
Filling up your cup
Never enough
Never enough

Colliding Thoughts

Two Moons Collide
One goes
We don't know why
Count the days
Until death comes
Or life begins
Thought you knew
So much more room to grow
STUFF
Never thought I would have
To deal with that
Dynamics
Touch my life
Woman's intuition
I know
But not why
Just That is
What occurs
To tired sometimes
To think of life
Where it goes
Where did my road go
I thought I knew
But space Said NO
Two Moons crashed
Chaos ensued
Now I don't know
BE IN THE PRESENT
Hard sometimes
Doesn't it get brighter
Where is my place
Where is my road
Sometimes I don't know
Then I tell myself
What I have is beautiful
Count your blessings
Look at LIFE
Could have been worse
It has been worse
It has been better
It has been happier
It has been harder
Stuck in relativity
Hard to say what I want
OR what I think is right
Always wanting to RIGHT
Make someone happy
Make someone feel good
Build them up
Give them what they need
Not too much trouble
I swear
Not in the way
Where is SHE
I will keep looking
Where is my road
Mabey not down there
Anymore
A new road might be what I need
Realize Realize Realizations
Come
When I let loose
Just let it flow
Just be free
Not trying to please
Just trying to be
Who I am
This point in time
This place in space
This lover
This heart
It hurts too much
Thinks too much
Feels alone sometimes
Don't want to deal with MEAN
CRAZINESS
OR JEALOUSY
IV'E HAD ENOUGH JUST LET ME BE
Been hurt too much
Just want to love
Not enough energy to deal with
petty
Petty small
Very small
Leave it alone
Grow up and let me be

AGE

I had a conversation today with one of my regulars...as I do. The subject-age. I say, it's all relative. Of course when you work with an 80 year old woman, it's easy to feel young. Last night, I got to see youth at it's finest as well. A friend's children put on a clever, talented impromptu dance contest for us...Just seeing those girls dance around, feel embarrased, let loose, faces shining-smiling and HOP HOP HOPPING around, put me in touch with my inner child. She is there, she will never go away, I felt compelled to conversate afterward with her stuffed monkey Bananas after ward. ...although I have always had a strong affinity with stuffed Monkeys(KISSKISS) It was refreshing. I have always had a strong connection with children, even though I was told I will never have one of my own...perhaps because I appreciate them. I also respect parents who raise there children, rear them, teach them. LIFE. It is what we make it.
I didn't have the best childhood myself, but I will say I didn't have the worst either...again...all relative. I can appreciate now what my mother did out of love for us, although at the time, and she admits this-was harsh and mean sometimes. I guess I got a LITTLE bit of that myself when I feel strongly about something. I guess I got a lot out of my Parents. Love-first and foremost, good work ethics, manners, creativity, I can clean the sh**T out of a bathroom(Thanks MOM)
Anyway, I guess where I am going with this, I think one day, one day soon, I may be meeting some children soon. The children of a man who I have a growing love and respect for. A lot of love...a lot of respect. SHEET emotion. Yes.
I imagine one day, I will be a part of there lives. I can only hope that I can exude the love I feel for there father into there life, that I can teach them a thing or two along the way, about love, forgivness, frienship, life. ...or just be there for them if they ever need me, to talk to, to play a game with, to share some imagination, to share a meal, to learn something new...because really if you get down to the details, that is all LIFE is about, whether you are 5 or 95, right?

Glimse

In the process of keeping things as UNCOMPLICATED as possible
I tend to wonder
Where
The road will
GO
Can only see
A foot ahead right
now
Except my Mind
Knows
Where I go
Can't control
What others do
That's their choice
What's in the stew
Question Question Question
DO you know
That's what keeps me
Entertained
Simplicity
Bores me
Keep me guessing
I guess
I don't know
That's that beauty
OF you
Question
Question
My heart Feels fragile
Growing strong
I prefer sensitivity
TO ambiguity
All in time
Tick tock tick tock
Waiting for what
We don't know
Why don't you show it all to me
Bare your soul
Trust me
I won't run scared
I won't turn away
Tell it all
Why you LIED
Why decieve
Know soon enough
What's on your head
A brain
What's in your eyes
I can't wait to see
The Darkness inside
Do you get it
Do you understand
I know
Trust me
Let it out
I want it all
Don't be afraid
Let me see
Unseen
I come and go
But it hurts sometimes
TOO
I just won't let it show
I know everything you say
I know each mannerism
You portray
I glimse your soul
In mine

FEEL REAL

What love is
A word sometimes
A feeling
Warm
Hot
Safe
Your face
New
But so in sync
Weird, I know?
WOW
Can I say
How perfect this feels
Too much
NO fear
What I always wanted
I knew that you were there
Waiting
Always
Little things
My hair
Your face
Our kiss
SO real
Your so Real
Make me feel
Like I'm finally here
Not just drifting
But knowing
Where this goes
Everything
Everything
Everything
I want
Now you are here
SO beautiful
We are for real
Touch your face
Dream Color
Black and white
Share everything with me
I know
I know
How you feel
And for me, you are real
Touch your Face
Touch my hair
Hold me tight
Feels just right
How nice
How lovely
How sweet
How real You feel

REASONS BEHIND REASONS-WE DON'T KNOW

WHEN I THINK OF YOU I GET SAD
SORROW FOR YOU
FOR WHAT YOU HAD
FOR WHAT YOU LOST
THANK YOU THOUGH
ALMOST TOOK MY SOUL
LOOK IN THE MIRROR WHEN I AM SAD
SEE YOUR ACTIONS
MADE ME FEEL SO BAD
ALMOST TOOK MYSELF
ALMOST DROWNED IN DEPTH
THOUGHT ABOUT TAKING MY LAST BREATH
NOW I KNOW
I COULDN'T SEE
THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON
ALWAYS
EVEN IF WE DON'T AGREE
WE DON'T CONTROL OUR FATES
LET GO FINALLY
CANNOT HARNESS THE HATE
IT'S GONE
FINALLY I FEEL FREE
INDIFERENT
AS YOU WISHED I WOULD BE
SORRY I DON'T LOVE LIKE THAT
YOUR PROBLEM IN LIFE
I SEE
IS DUPLICITY
ABILITY TO LIE
TO CHANGE
LIKE A PHOENIX
BUT THIS TIME
JUST DUST LEFT BEHIND
SORRY FOR YOU
BUT NOT FOR ME
I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS
YOU DIDN'T TAKE THAT AWAY
SURROUNDED IN IT DAY AFTER DAY
NIGHT AFTER NIGHT
THE LIGHT OF LOVE SURROUNDS ME
PROTECTS ME
MAKES ME GLOW
SORRY FOR YOU
I ONLY PRAY
DAY AFTER DAY
THAT YOU WILL LET YOURSELF GROW