Stay away

Stay away
Don't come near me
Don't call
Don't think
Don't want your thoughts
Don't want your care
This is it
No more games
You don't control me
I am my own
Gone away
Can't forgive
Should have thought
Before you LIVED
100 lies
Looked me in the eye
A thousand tears
Better off
Without your shadow
Following mine
Back off
I'm no longer yours
You had your chance
Put a thought inside your head
You don't inspire
Anything but hate
Darkness
Sadness
Selfishness
Alone now
You want to make amends
But it's too late
I'm already a ghost to you
Rapture

You Don't
Make me laugh
Make me think
Or make me happy
I asked for someone kind
Someone altruistic
Understanding
That person is not you
Would rather rot alone
The spend another moment of my life
With you
Not enough time
In a day
To waste it with you
So please
Please
Please
Leave me alone.

Ebb and Flow

The only flow
Is this
I know
Sometimes melancholy
Sometimes laughing
Lonely or not enough
Brain chemistry
Imbalance is tough
Take some pills
Mellow it out
Not for me
Who I am
I let it be
Manic
Happy
Depressed
Contemplative
Quiet
Free
Think too much
Turn it off
Get an outlet
For all the stuff
But put it where
storage of my mind
Too full already
Of memories
Inclinations
Ideas
Stuff to do
Sleep too much
Not enough
Can't have balance
Without the stuff
Shop too much
Not at all
Fill a void
Fill the hole
The whole
Meditate
Contemplate
Make sense of life
Quick
Figure it out
Before it's too late
Too much time
Not enough
Drive too fast
Eat too much
Not enough
Talk Talk Talk
Never better
This road is mine
Alone I walk
Convoluted thoughts
too much damage
Try to hide
But never lie
Let it all show
Who fucking cares
What's meant to be
Will be unveiled

Giving Thanks

As of late, I feel as if Life has been handing me blessings left and right.
I want to say "Thank you"
Thank you for putting people in my life who love to laugh as much as I do
Acceptance, for who people are.
New friends and old, coming together-Harmoniously, sharing a meal, an evening, a memory.
Thank you, for delivering kindness. For showing me how to be kind again.
For showing me that loving acts do exist
Romance is not dead.
Little things and big. SO many things to be thankful for
Food in my stomach
A safe place to live that has not been ravaged my hurricane, tornadoes, nuclear waste, fire.
A comfortable bed to sleep in at night
Parents who love there children enough to make wise decisions, my own and others.
Thank you for delivering Truth and Honesty into my life
For the warm feeling in my stomach.
Thank you life, for taking away my anger, for dissolving my hurt. For letting in the light and showing me happiness again.
Thank you for taking away my fear, fear that I would never feel worthy again. That I would wake up scared and alone.
Thank you