TOXICITY

The human race
Dissapearing
Taking out
The trash
No longer working
Machines
Churning
Out burning
Toxic
Ocean filled with oil
Fish are
well
Dying
No longer worry
About your six pack soda
This OIL
Gets the job done faster
WOOPS
Kill a species
OH well NOT NEEDED
ECO system Crisis
Blinking
RED
KEEP on consuming
Red meat
Retsin
Pharmaceuticals
Livers stopping
Well what IS THAT
Our bodies
Only know
What earth bestows
Not enough
Obviously
Keep on Dumping
Spilling
Breathing
Making Toxicity
Spill and Kill
Born ill
Born Sad
A new generation
Oh well
What's THAT
NOW
NOW
NOW
and well Me me me
Well Just a guess
I guarantee
Earth will stand
Longer than
Our Population

NEEDS

Caught up in the day
Tangled up in the way
I choose to live my life
I need a nap
I need a break
So tired
Always running
Make the time
To excercise
Need to read
Need to feed
Need to sleep
Need to breath
Can't stop thinking
Exhaust myself
Write a book
Take a walk
Take a breath
Make a nest
Laugh with friends
Speed around the next bend
Don't hit the brakes
Just keep speed
Green Tea Pill
Keeps me up
Eat an apple
Read a book
Pause and take a breath
Body says STOP
MIND SAYS STOP
Never enough time
To feed my body
Feed my wallet
Feed my mind
Prioritize
Naturalize
Recognize

Like a puzzle

Falls come
New Dreams
Can I see?
Let's keep it real
You only know
What is right in front of you

Don't stop
A lot of time
Take it slow
Complex
A lot of room to grow
Never stop
Look at each day
As a chance to know
To think
To contemplate
This life
The only one
Each of us knows
Each separate
Stand on your own
A lot of questions
A lot of answers
But all I see is
What's real
What's underneath
A lot of me
A lot of you
Little ways
Indications
Don't hide
It's okay

THINKING

Sitting here thinking
TO myself
And no one else
My thoughts
Silence
Opens up
Traps
To explore
Each thought a start
Ending the next
What is next?
I don't know
Neither does she
Neither does HE
Neither do you
All we know is what may come
What goes around comes around
A full circle
A circle we make
Spinning wheels
In your head
Stop
Look under the rug
Pull the thread
Human nature
Unpredictable
Unreliable
Fallible
Beautiful

Yes and No, I don't know

Days Fade
Into Night
Still life
Turns brighter
Dark Days
Behind Dreams
Of Deth
Of Deep sadness
Don't forget
How you felt
Remember and LEARN
From every
Moment
Spent
Sad
Alone
For Happiness
Comes just around the next bend
When you can't see the turn
Don't try
Just learn
Follow the road
Walk slow
Don't rush
Each decision
Flings
New Consequence
Honest choices
Bear honest fruit
Lies Pile
Like stink
Shit
I loath
Each moment
A chance
For a new beginning
Take the high Road
Stare down at the low
Know
You are doing so
Right by yourself
Your love
Will grow
Like a sunflower
Reaching the sky
Slow SLOW SLOW SLOW
Don't miss a moment
Stop and think
Feed your decision with RIGHT

Moral red Road

I was talking to a very dear friend of mine recently.
Part of the subject is the Moral Red Road that we walk, today, I recieved a beautiful red, beaded bracelet that she had made for me, SYMBOLIZING just this.
Morals-a subject most are raised with. Peoples parents instill in them, through there upbringing there own set of values and morals. To share, to be honest, take care of the elderly, follow the ten commandments-essentially, plus some. Well, these are a few examples of morals that I was raised to have.
As a person, a little person, who is moldable and receptive grows into there own big person, there own grown set of morals develop. Things that are important to them, that they follow in there own life, independant of parental morals.
I have always, even as a teenager, decided what my morals where going to be. First and foremost, in order to salvage the crazy emotionally fraught relationship with my Mother was, NOT to lie. Always tell the truth. Even if it something that you don't want to do, or something that may sting. This has never gone wrong.
Secondly, a moral that I developed for myself, along the way, on my red road, is not to cheat. If you do, you either live with it, and it eats you up inside, or you eventually get found out, finding nothing but pain and destruction for your love relationship. Not worth it. Not ever. Not even looking. This is the most important one to me, because I value love above ALL ELSE.
This also goes for being the other woman. Won't do it.
Take care of your friendships.This goes without saying,friends are family.
SO when you get down to it.Get down to it. Pick your morals and stick by them. Not only will they create healthy boundaries for in your life, you will never have to question whether or not you feel like shit. Because if you follow your Red Road, you won't.

KNOT

Feelings growing strength
Fear grows
Push it away
Old
Feelings
Of
Not good enough
SO many years
Of it
Never realized what I was doing to myself
Allowing someone to make me feel
Like I wasen't quiet good enough
What does that mean
Not good enough
For love
For WHAT
I hate what people do to each other
I vow to be UNDERSTANDING
I vow to be PATIENT
I vow to be OPEN MINDED
TRUE
To myself
What I know is Right
In love
HONEST
Sometimes I find myself NOT being these things
Snap judgements
Jealousy
Lack of understanding
Can understand
Because you want me to
Where did you come from
Just right for me
Just right for you
Where did you come from
I love the way you look at me
Hold me tight
Answer my questions Honestly
You value friendships
Just like I do
Like to laugh
At all the same stuff
Same foods we like
Holding hands
Little things
Mean the most
I can feel us growing
Inside my heart
Warm and steady
Right timing
For everything
I find myself wanting to be near you
When i'm not
When were away
My thoughts of you are not
Other things will come up
The past
Creeps
That's what it does
But we blend it
With what we have
So much to know about you
So much to do
Always want to be knotted up with you