AWE

Sometimes I sit and wonder if this love I have, this love so perfect in everyway will be taken away from me. I worry( briefly, not all day) every morning that something will happen and he will be taken away. Is that why it is so perfect, this love of mine, that I will only be granted it for a short time? Every time we kiss it's like some sick sappy romantic movie and I have to stop myself from gasping is this really happening? Just being together and talking still and laughing and knowing that we are both 500 percent for each other and no one else, the non- fighting, well mabey over the brand of hand soap that we use...( hahaahah) I know I shouldn't sit and wonder if it will be forever and not go away, but aren't bubbles supposed to pop, don't you get to the end of the rainbow and find no pot of gold. How did I get so lucky? I literally feel pity for others that do not have this, and I cannot talk about it. ....why don't you ever talk about it? Why don't you have anything to say. I feel like I would be gloating there is no other way to describe this relationship of mine. Why was I spared the heart ache? Why do I have to wisdom to carry on this perfect union? I don't know...I was just granted it. I am sure there are others that carry on the same way with a celebration of there love, but I know only mine. Everything else on this earth pales in comparison to his face his composition, and I am loved the same. It scares me that we are only human and not mortals. I need to be mortal. I need him to be mortal. I need us to carry on forever, a lifetime would not be enough together, we could easily go on for several. Easily. I know I am being greedy. I know that is too much to ask. I know that it could not be granted. But I want it. This one will have to be enough. I have no other choice. We are one, different but the same. We laugh every single day. We love like we are still 18( well it's way hotter now:)) Phhhhhhhhhewwwwwwww. I am just in awe of my love.