Present/Past

When a story changes in your mind
Feelings change
Bad Sad Feelings subside
Don't take it back
A single thing
A diamond ring
That thing
Became possessed
It took your love
It took my trust
She took you home
She took my heart
You killed that love
You scarred my heart
I hated her
But never  you
I hope she knows
Her love
Her trust
Her heart
Will never soar
Will never trust
Will never thrive
A broke foundation
Once again
A repeated pattern
A cheat
A liar
A sin
Keeps on sucking
Keeps on feeling
Like it's not enough
She knows
She knows
She knows
She will never trust
Does she know how you cried
How you sobbed
Sobbed that we lost a love
A love that shriveled up and died

Like a Phoenix
I burst forth
Raging
Sobbing
Alone and Hurt
I felt my world cave in
I felt the blackest black inside my heart
The deepest pain
The sharpest sharp
My world was changed
Forced to grow
I faced a world
Alone
No family
No home
Cast aside
I wept and dreamed and read
Hoped that someday
I would feel again
I would crawl out of the black
I would see some light
I pushed myself
I pushed myself up towards the light

Praying and crying
Crying for relief
From the pain inside my soul
Inflicted from some sad, selfish, desperate, sort of game
From your own past
From your own pain
"I deserve this" you said
I take what I want
I don't care

Light my light
Guide my path
I prayed to God
I cried
Why?
I asked

Time passed
I felt my glow return
I met a man
I must have known
Before
In another time
In another Universe
He's everything
In my eyes
True love
I don't question
I don't mistrust
I can feel his LOVE
For me,
And me alone
He makes me whole

I ask myself
I ask my God
Is this what you had in mind
Is this my plan?
That you imagined

I will never know
But I do know this
He deserves thanks
Everyday
For what I have been blessed with
In every way