My Momma and Me

Spring is almost over; summer is coming
Darkest sky of night, moon above
We are all; we are none
My peace rests in my Mother; in her is me
She knows me best; time and love
Us Forever one sky; one love
Of all above; on self
In us; we never rest
The restless spirit flies; and dreams
Things out of reach; within reality
I came into this world, in her
In her lives me; all time
Since I have known myself; and she has known
All time; infinity; eternity
In life; in dreams
In things that are from beyond what we can see
We can't change time, we can't change eternity
In us it lives; it lives in our love
In the dreams that we dream
In our minds
In our lives
Do things happen; time space continuim
Or does what we do
Propel us from Earth
Into our thoughts; into our dreams
Into things in between
Into the space we waste
On our fears
Freaking night terrors
Silent screams, dreams
All that I am is you Mom
The scares and the fears
The restless spirit that flies
Tries to lie in her poems
Of things that are rooted
When my feet fly; fast with fear
What is real; what is past
What is in me, Ma
That makes me this way
Full of fear
Full of hope, full of Love
All that is near, far, everywhere
My restless spirit flies with you
Ma
All that I am; what I love
What you gave me
Life
Me

Live free! Live for Love!

When our minds want to escape reality, it does. There is a sleuth of different ways that the mind somehow finds to do this, including mental madness.  Sleeping, eating,  and other habits that over take us;
Far from our comfortable wonderful families that we love,sometimes can be a harsh effect.  Other times to help us relax our minds, relax, take the stress off from our days. To change with friends, relax and imbibe.
Why do we do what we do?
Is there a time and a place for everything?
Everything is with us and we are with it.
Live free and live for LOVE!!!

ThgiN

Give me all of your secrets of beauty!
Dark as Night,Black as night
The night sky is shining!
The Sky is shining with sparking diamonds--
We are made of light;sparkling black as night
I want to shine
Vast night
The sky shines
I want my eyes to shine like the stars
Diamonds in the sky
Looking into the universe
All of her secrets a mystery
I want to be as beautiful as black
Night skys' shining
Endless nights' eyes
Stars shining, forever and endless
I want eyes that gleam
Sparkles of diamond; deep down
From the centre of time
God is everywhere,To me
Limitless beauty
Vast as night
The moon shining down
I sing a song to her
To all; to all, to all, to all
Shining down white
Forever here, forever after
In this time, forever
Forever, Forever, Forever
Mysterious beauty
Luminous moon
Shine your beauty onto me
Pour your white beauty over our souls
Everywhere/Forever
We will be together
Me and Him
His and mine
Forever
All of time
Shining Universe
You are beautiful
You are beautiful
Eyes shining stars
White Moon Face
Bathe me in your glow

Darkness and light dream

Is life a dream?
When we wake up
In a scream
Or
When you see;
A place inside your self
Mysterious beauty; Queens and Castles
Darkest times in history; wet air
Dank with disease and fright
A royal Queen; a mystery
Dreams become reality

Houses rising from mountains;pools of blue desire
Is this heaven?
Have we arrived?
Is heaven everywhere; in between here and there
In our dreams; our nightmares
When we wake up in a scream
Three a.m. a place and not a time
Frightened awake by my mind;Tranquil peace, purest dreams
Here I am
Here I am free
Here I can see
This is heaven;our nightmares
Our dreams
Inside our heads, we live
Dare to dream; imagine being free
Dare to be free, in there where your darkest fears make silent screams
What could be, if we were evil inside?
A glimpse into things unseen
What happens in our darkest dreams?
Where are we, when we are inside a dream?
Outside our heavens, inside our dreams
The darkest places in our minds, dare to exist
In our dreams
Where we are free
Where heaven exists
Where light and darkness dream



This passage is based on dreams that I have had in the past, concerning my darkest nightmares(some other time), and also concerns dreams of a specific house rising out of a mountain top, that evokes feelings of pure happiness in myself.
I have woken up from the darkest nightmares, feeling that I touched the darkest parts of myself.
This poem also describes some of the feelings that I have, that I have existed in another time.
Also, thoughts of does heaven exist? Is it here? Up above? Or everywhere?

Beauty is everything

Can you hear the whispering wind through the leaves
Cotton Candy clouds;a clear pristine blue
What is beautiful?
Leaves flutter in the wind like paper
Fragile;their sound a rustling
If you listen you can hear
Beauty makes a sound when the leaves blow;
Silent beauty in breathtaking views
What is beauty?
Where does she come from
Inside of everything; mirrored onto what we can see
Is beauty fragile, or strong
Is she the great white Queen Moon
Vast in the sky; glowing white
Earth, the Universe, above,in between
Queen Woman;strength of a tree
Her leaves fragile, notes of whispers
We are all one thing
Cerulean pools of cotton candy dreams
What is beauty when she is everything

Happenings

Does anybody want to hear a happy/sad story? This is my life, as of late. I have to say, in some ways it's been a little sad...but on the other hand; the sad events make me a little bit glad.
On May 5th I was fired from my job. I spent five years excelling. I gave them a sandwich to put on the menu(Veganini Panini). I gave them there crab cakes. I gave them my all. I was there, I was punctual. I was planning on leaving.
 They have too much gossip, they have too much drama, which apparently overrides business practice.
 In my opinion, they don't really know how to run a business.
 It doesn't matter how it went down, it just did.
 I lost/they lost when they lost me.
They lost when they lost sight of what makes a business successful.
 I am going ( have already) moved on to " bigger" and " better " things, literally. They lost my faith, they lost my business and they lost my heart. I think my nine year old step son said it best, " I'm sorry Farra, I know how much you loved the Good Egg" Out of the mouth of a child the truth speaks. I did love the Good Egg. I have not lost faith in myself though. I know that I am an exceptional person, an  exceptional worker and have contributed much over the years to them. So why was I treated no better than a scraping off the bottom of a tennis shoe? What is going on in AMERICA when hardworking, honest people are let go?
Thank you for the experience Good Egg, and Fuck you very much.
Onto the Happy.
I was already going through the interview process when I got fired.
The interview process at Ebay/Paypal.
When I say "bigger", I mean it
When I say " better " I mean it.
I wish that I wasn't treated like an expendable piece of trash.
But at least I have my drive, experience and back ground to push me UP
Instead of down
In my opinion, Ebay is lucky to have me, and I am lucky to have them. 

Love Complete

In myself I see me
When I looked
In him I saw myself
In his he was me
From the start
Love found itself
Itself it found
When it did look
When it did seek
Inside Love complete
Inside Love me
Me love him.
Him love me.
Simple Complete

Himself/Me
Me/Himself
Strangely alike
Alike
We know
Inside and Where

In himself
He sees me
Love reflected
Love stares back
In me
What we want
Both
Inside
The likeliness of each
Seen through
Each other's
Eyes
In our love
I am whole
Whole as One
Whole as Me
Whole as One
Whole is he
Within our love
Being each One
One Self
We are
We are We
In this Life
In this dream
In what each of us saw in Love
In what each of us saw in Each other
In this Love we are Free
We are each other
We are we
Making it True
Making it complete