Ebb and Flow

The only flow
Is this
I know
Sometimes melancholy
Sometimes laughing
Lonely or not enough
Brain chemistry
Imbalance is tough
Take some pills
Mellow it out
Not for me
Who I am
I let it be
Manic
Happy
Depressed
Contemplative
Quiet
Free
Think too much
Turn it off
Get an outlet
For all the stuff
But put it where
storage of my mind
Too full already
Of memories
Inclinations
Ideas
Stuff to do
Sleep too much
Not enough
Can't have balance
Without the stuff
Shop too much
Not at all
Fill a void
Fill the hole
The whole
Meditate
Contemplate
Make sense of life
Quick
Figure it out
Before it's too late
Too much time
Not enough
Drive too fast
Eat too much
Not enough
Talk Talk Talk
Never better
This road is mine
Alone I walk
Convoluted thoughts
too much damage
Try to hide
But never lie
Let it all show
Who fucking cares
What's meant to be
Will be unveiled