Thoughts and Lately

The demons I face chase me
Everyday
I face the sun
New day
The courage it takes
To make life shine
Take little
Give so much
Easy it would be
Take to the trees
Myself
I find
In silence
It's key
In taking in each breath
Each challenge
I face
I drag through the swamp
Decisions weigh
Heavy on my mind
Just let things be
Angry winds push thoughts
Thoughts of negativity
Towards me
Master of rejection
Delusion
Or Illusion
Courage Doesn't run
Faces each bend
Each branch
Each vine
Pushed deep into the earth
Deep into evil
Read this recently
Processing thoughts
Lately
All I seem to want to see
The words in front of me

Only the lies of our neighbors
Only what we choose to believe
The thoughts of others
The advice of some
My mother
Friend
Lover
Dreams
Wake up each day
New
Cold
What do we take with us
Ourselves
Thats it
Love yourself
Self worth
Aloft
Only than
Can we really see
From up above
Looking down at yourself
What
I
really
Means
Thanks Nietzche

TIME

EVERYDAY
SHAPE
IT TAKES
WHATEVER THAT MAY BE
TIME MAKES IT
TAKE IT'S OWN TIME
HA
MADE A LAUGH
REST YOUR SOUL AT NIGHT
IF YOU TAKE THE TIME TO BE
LOOSE
EASE THE PRESSURE INSIDE OUT
PRESSURE FROM LIFE OUTSIDE PENETRATING THE INSIDE MIND
FROM DAY
LIFE
FEELS GOOD AND STUFF
WINK*
TO HOT
RELAXING IT'S REAL
JUST BREATH
ONLY SO MUCH IN YOUR TIME
IN YOUR TIME
ROUND
AGAIN
AGAIN
AGAIN
SNAP
HERES REALITY
AGAIN
KEEP MY ATTENTION
SNAP
DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN
SHALL WE GO AGAIN
AROUND AGAIN
SWIRLING FASTER
FASTER
THEN SLOWER
NO CONTROL
OF WHICH YOU KNOW
SO NO
IT'S NOT YOURS TO OWN
WHY IS A CLOCKS FACE ROUND?
WHY DOES TIME SPIN AROUND
AROUND
AROUND
NEVER STOPPING
THAT'S ME
THAT'S MY LOVE
ENERGY BREATH
LOVE FOR ALL
NOT JUST ONESELF
THAT'S MY TIME AND HOW I CHOOSE TO HAVE IT
UNIVERSAL
REALLY
FOR ALL
FOR YOU FOR ME FOR EVERY OBJECT THAT FLOATS IN SPACE THIS PLANT THIS PLACE THIS HOUSE THIS CAR A TREE A FLOWER EACH TIME IT KEEPS ON SPINNING SPINNING SPINNING SPINNING SPINNING SPINNING
SPINNING
TAKING PLACE

TIGHT

Threads woven
Slowly tight
Friendship grows
Takes nothing
But time
Always
Hiding Nothing
Takes time
To grow Trust
Older threads
Fray
Let them stay
MAKE YOU
Circle
Never complete
Around it goes
Again Again
Each Rotation
The Moon makes
Spinning in it's own Time
Your life
Your friends
Bend and Flex
That's how you give and take
Life's pulse
Keeps beating
In time
With your blood
Your soul
You love
You Hate
Don't despise
Just dislike
Destiny and Fate
Universe
Above
Gives

A simple Dream

So tired
Sleep
A dream
A delicacy
Each hour Spent
Fetal
Alone in my mind
Rejuvenate
My thoughts
Recharge my brain
A different place
Each person
From before
Now
Anew
In my own mind

PLEASE

Inside my mind
The little things to do...to listen to...file away, to help me quit. Quit for good. If this is the hardest thing I ever have to do, I am blessed. If so, than why is it so hard?
Putting something "foul" in my body, should be incentive enough, you would think?
Taking my beauty-my vain pride. I feed my mind with these things. The things that don't matter much now,but will later. HINDSIGHT.
Each day, these thoughts in my mind grow stronger, slowly squeezing out the desire.
I take each piece of advice. Each admonition, I listen to. I file it away. The little things all add up.
I am feeding on my own inner strength, and the strength I feel and hear in the prayers of others that love me.
Substituting one thing for the other, until there is no room in my day, because other things have become so much more important to DO.
Like falling in love. Before you know it, that being has become such a central force in your mind..heart that you KNOW
Back to the task at hand.
HAND IN HAND
I gave myself permission to EAT
How sad that a habit has, among all the other horrible things it has done to me and my health, taken my ability to function as I naturally would AWAY?
To be able to do this, would make me proud. I would be thankful for the strength to be able to do this.
AMEN

Repetitions

We are all a part of something else
Our thoughts
Our memories
Our dreams
Fears
Insecurities
Each individual
Each unique
We share a moment
A day
A picture
A smile
A night of sleep
A meal
A joke
But really each interpretation
Is exclusive to you
To me
Nobody shares everything
No one thought is the same
No fear
Alike
We all have a past
We all have bags
We carry around
Situations with others
That have created our own unique make up
Nobody can say for sure
Everyone can offer an opinion
But ultimately
The choices that we make
Each day
That affect us
That ultimately affect the lives of others
Intertwined with us have the ability
The capacity
To change our life
We cannot control what others do
Only our own choices guide us
Sometimes
Unfortunately
The choices of others lead us down a path
Against our will
Who is to say that these choices
Are right or wrong?
Everything happens for a reason
Is it fate that guides emotions
IS it the stars
The universe
The ocean current
GOD
Nobody knows for sure
All I do know is this
Take my time
Think things through
Make decisions
" "
or
" "
right
wrong
There is no difference
The love we put out
Is returned
One who loves
Others
Will always find LOVE
One who selfishly loves
Finds selfish love
What we give
Is what is returned
No exchanges
On situations
Each day
We face new
Different from the rest

Listening

Singed ashes fell
Around my soul
My face Fell
In form
Dark eyes
No light
No faith
HERETIC
Anger burned
Hot
Rage
Consuming ME
The way I used to be
Now it's here
The moment came
The pain
Oh
Did it fade
Little teeny
Tiny
Miniscule
Vibrations
Strum at me
Only I can hear
The itsy bitsy
Insight
Wisdoms
TRUTH
Inside
Bestows
Two doors
One Mind
One heart
YOU KNOW MY REFERENCE
BOTH HEART
Bleeding
Stopped
Scabbed over hurt
Deep scar
LEARNING FROM IT GREW
One that shows
In daily life
Happiness
Glows
NOW
THE HERE
THE MOMENT
ONE
So WHY confusion
No reason
No rhyme
IN THIS JUMBLED MIND
An old solidity
IN COMFORT
OR FEAR OF HURT
MISTRUST
LIES
FACES
LOOK ME IN THE EYE
Or new
Sweet Love
Not burned
Not gray
Framed
By memories
A quick frame
A click
A day
Light
Fire
Soft glow
Of your face at Night